last thursday's choir wasn't so bad. it ended on time at 9.30 but guess what. after running out to catch the shuttle bus, the bus uncle just drove off without us. sigh. he saw us coming but still zoomed off. sigh. i think i'm fated never to go home before 11pm on choir nights.
celebrated duan hui's birthday at the munchie monkey. we got her a pretty unusual present which i won't mention here in case she objects to it. i ate the chocolate brownie. god, it was so sweet, i had a headache after eating it. i think i'd prefer it if the brownie was cold.
anyway, saw zaidah yesterday at parkway. had a nice time chatting a while. miss her.
went to holy family for evening mass cos parents wanna attend fr christopher's mass. it was ok. considering he's still new to the priest hood. the homily was plain boring though. it was obviously prepared and read off a piece of paper. never mind, i won't criticise too much since i probably can't do any better.
ivle is so frustrating now. it's down for maintainence. and i haven't downloaded my maths tutorial yet. and the tutorial is tomorrow. sigh. my fault lah. i actually got it yesterday and i thought it was printed out properly so i deleted it. and then it turned out that instead of 2 pages, it was printed as a repeat of page 1. by the time i noticed, it was too late to turn on the comp and download again. sigh. hope the 2nd page doesn't have too much on it. lucky i got the english tutorial from jasmine. going to do it after this.
and my computers all got problems. first my house computer. sigh. i turned it on and tried to get it to work. but the net connection...sigh. i waited for 20 minutes and still nothing happened. the thing keeps telling me that something's wrong with the connection. but as far as i know, everything's ok. i think it's something about the panda internet security we installed. it's been giving so much problems. mummy should have gotten norton instead. it may be a bit more expensive but at least it's got name. this panda software never heard of before. anyway, now i'm using my laptop. and for some inexplicable reason, the signs for @ and " have switched. you know how for the first 'at' sign, you press shift and 2 right? now i have to press the button for the double inverted commas instead. don't tell me now my laptop's spoiling. sigh.
bought the sequel to 'eragon'. it's called 'eldest'. it's so cool. can't wait to read it. but i've got no time to read it lah. sigh. so near and yet so far.
kinda screwed up the psalm today too. they tell me it was way too soft. i figured something was wrong but i couldn't tell what. sigh. too tired to sing these days. singing needs happiness. and energy. which i have none at the moment. it get obvious when you solo cos you're so exposed to everything. sigh. got next week to 'redeem' myself.
and tomorrow there's the chance that hui jun's going to test us on dokin. which i'll prob screw up too. stupid song. i'm totally rhythm blind. tried listening to the nwc file that joanne posted but it's going so fast that i can't catch up most times. sigh. don't like still must do. it's part of life.
and there's school tomorrow. the mid term tests are coming up soon. i think i'll fail everything. don't feel confident about anything at all these days. like some guy in my maths class said "i feel so stupid". sigh.
chin lin is leaving the country in a few weeks time. sigh. i think i'll miss her. true, i haven't had a proper conversation with her for years but still. she's one of my longest friends, even longer than jac and zhengying. wish her all the best. also thinking about all the friends i've had and lost over the years. (i think one day, i'll write a post dedicated to all the friends that have come and gone)
anyway, to sum up, life sucks at the moment. sure, there's those little spots of sunshine here and there but mostly, it's dark. i miss jc times. whoever said that uni life was slacker than jc lied to me. i miss mj. miss the friends i had there, the happy times. sigh. (i think duan hui's depression has passed on to me) sometimes i wonder what would have happened if i decided to work instead of studying. would it have been better?
ok, let's try to end off with something happy. (depression is a state of mind. think happy thoughts)
hey clay! you're hot and all, but lose the hat. it so doesn't go in my opinion. twisted lyric i seen "Not too crazy about celebrities,Never been into that kind of (shi...)stuff, no." haha! they were going to say shit. muahaha! long live the broads. they always make me smile.
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